This was the day of regret and shame. Regret, not only because I haven't been able to stay sober for many days at a time, perhaps not more than three or four tops after the first week, but also because I spent the money I was supposed to spend on my japanese course, which I… Continue reading A disastrous birthday
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In karma we trust
I no longer understand what my psychologist want from me. Off course it was a lot worse when I had a therapist who didn't understand me, but it's pretty darn frustrating not to understand your therapist either. That eternal ongoing nagging about getting intouch with my feelings. I don't get it. I feel like getting… Continue reading In karma we trust
Dark secrets of repair kits
Where do I find the beginning of heaven? Can I find it where the swinging treetops stop, where the swallovs are dancing their airballet with the last summers litter of chickens? Is it at the highest of mountains, over the rainbow, above the next hilltop, or is it where the grass sprouts in freshly sown… Continue reading Dark secrets of repair kits
Hitting rock bottom
You might think that falling asleep using your doormat as a pillow because you couldn’t find the keys which slipped through your fingers and landed on the floor two feet from where your head hit the doormat the night before, is what’s called hitting rock bottom, but no! Unless this is something that occur more… Continue reading Hitting rock bottom
Anger issues
I need change! When I woke up yesterday morning with my head resting on my not so comfortable doormat with my keys, which I couldn’t find the night before, lying on the floor two feet from my face, and the steaming fresh morning paper at my feet, I thought to my self that it’s time… Continue reading Anger issues
Day 75, september 28., 2017
It has never occurred to the minds of men that the world should be saved by a woman... I’m sitting on a bus, among strangers, crying my eyes out. I’m lost! I don’t know what to do with my self. I have no roots! I have no land! I have no place to go, nowhere… Continue reading Day 75, september 28., 2017
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